Good advice from a baby sis...other misc.

Today I called my little sister (dare I mention I did that while at work) and was discussing the outcome of the court case with her. We were discussing forgiveness...not necessarily being like "hey it's all okay, we're cool...no big deal" but rather forgiveness from the point of view that there isn't a rage left inside of us that we are able to move on with our lives and not think about it daily...

She said I need to get to the point of forgiving him because it's what God expects...I replied that I am aware that forgiveness is necessary...yet, I can't seem to wrap that around myself....

she went on to say that if I were to die on my way home from work (nice huh?) that she doesn't think I'd be held accountable for not getting to the point of forgiveness yet, especially since I've spent a great deal of time stressing about this and praying about it, but rather that it's understandable to be angry and to need time to get to forgiving.

Since when did my baby sister get a) religious and 2) good at giving advice? lol!

It was what I needed to hear...made me feel a little more at peace.
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I kept getting asked today if I was okay....apparently everyone thinks if I'm quiet that something must be wrong lol...I need to work on being quiet more often I guess! What can I say other than.....me and my big mouth :o)~

I've considered giving up speaking during lent but I'd probably totally screw that up!
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Tomorrow's forecast is calling for rain/snow...should be a fun ride into work! I'm hoping for an easy ride in and out. I have to teach the baptism class tomorrow night. Which is good...being involved at church makes me feel better about everything else...makes me feel closer even if I'm struggling with things. So, I think it's o.k. to pray for decent riding weather. I don't want all my books for class to get soaked.

I'm considering leaving work early tomorrow and heading down to the Catholic Book Store to pick up something...not sure what...but I'll know when I see it. Whenever I'm struggling I go spend money LOL! Usually on my bike or on books....bad habit? Maybe...but I always feel much better afterwards...and that's what it's all about heehee!
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Is anyone else as painfully aware as I am today of how close it is to Christmas and yet I have no shopping accomplished...or not enough to make it worth discussing? Oh man, it's gonna be a bad scene if I don't get in gear on this one!!!
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All right everyone, thanks for stopping by, thanks for reading and please leave comments.
Happy and Safe Riding my friends!

Almost had a freak out this morning.

The other day my husband picked me up from work...my bike was loaded into the back of my pick up truck....today he took my truck to work...and as I was brushing my teeth the thought crossed my mind that he had driven off with my bike in the truck....and then the thought "How the heck am I getting to work today." The thought of walking the almost 5 miles really had my heart racing.

I called him on his cell phone and he apparently knew exactly why I'd be calling him because he answered the phone "Open the front door, it's right there."

WHEW!!! What luck!

Thanking God and Bob this morning!!!

32 degrees today....looking for a high of 35 degrees...I guess it might be a little chilly this morning. Throwing an extra layer on between the biking shorts and the sweatpants this morning.

Happy and Safe Riding Folks!!!

GUILTY!!!!

Today he plead guilty!

It means the end of the monthly and bimonthly courthouse appearances. However, it means the beginning of the healing process for the people involved.
Personally, I hope his life is pure hell from this moment on.

He will be a lifetime registrant on the Sex Offender Registry, that's aside from all the other terms of his plea! This means someone else might be able to keep their child from being hurt!

Yet another court date....

Today we go to court again. Please keep your fingers crossed or say a little prayer that he takes the plea so that we can move on as best we can. Moving on isn't really possible until 'justice' is served...I say it like that because anyone who hurts one of my children or any child for that matter really isn't worth the air that they breathe! He's done this to at least 3 people now, and I can't help but think I should have caught on to it before it ever happened to my baby! Freakin Bastard! I hope he takes the plea today...which doesn't include jail time unfortunately!

I'm mad at him, I'm mad at my sister in law who could have prevented it, I'm mad at my mother in law who had the nerve to call me at work and tell me that I should still let him see my boys! I'm just all around mad...mad doesn't really describe it...inside I'm raging and wish I could take out that rage on him...but I know better, I know that I have to let our judicial system do the punishing...unfortunately it's not much of a punishment. One confession on our answering machine and one video taped by the police and he doesn't have to go to jail...He's a piece of crap!

I pray about this alot because I just can't quite seem to find forgiveness in my heart. I can forgive someone who hurts me, but hurting my children is not an option and it's not forgivable. He wanted to buy us off..."what do you want from me?" he asked....I want you to go kill yourself like you said you wanted to do in your confession on my answering machine...how's that for an answer?


Okay I'm off...gotta take the kids to school then head out.

Safe and Happy riding my friends!

Lovely Day

This morning I got up early and headed into work. Have I ever mentioned that I really don't like working on Sunday's? It seems totally against everything from when I was growing up. Sunday was a day to go to church and then spend with your family. However, life isn't always ideal...so I went to work. I drove today because I knew I had to stop at the store to pick up a bunch of stuff for the taco dinner I was making tonight.

I was the weekend manager today and came in to find that someone had called off from the kitchen...so I helped them serve the resident's their breakfast and their lunch. While doing this I found out that the other weekend managers do not do this. Let me say two things about that...
1. as a manager it is our job to make sure things go smoothly...carrying out a plate of food for a resident is not brain surgery and every single manager is capable of doing this...so I find it really sad that they don't.
2. If I ever again hear a manager claim to "help" out the short staffed kitchen I'm going to ask exactly how it is that they helped out because pouring coffee and tea is really not helping out...the C.N.A.'s are supposed to do that if the kitchen is short staffed anyway....so that's not taking a load off the kitchen...and I'm going to point that out..this especially brings to mind a certain manager who always claims that she helps out the kitchen....the head cook and the head waiter said she's never even come in to see if they were okay or not.

Moving on...I heard from our old buddy Scott today who we haven't really seen for over a year because he is in the military and has been gone. Anyway he came over to eat tacos with us tonight. That was a nice and unexpected visit. I've missed him a lot...we've been friends with him for 20 years now....OKAY....THAT MAKES ME FEEL OLD! YIKES!

Anyway, that's about it...not too much happening!

Safe and Happy riding folks...I'm off work tomorrow so probably won't ride because I have to be at the church at 9 a.m. for a class and then will be heading to court to see if this lousy bastard will plead guilty and take his punishment instead of dragging this on longer --- although I have a feeling that he will do exactly the opposite and not take the plea bargain that was offered instead trying to get it continued until December (after Christmas) so that he can spend the holidays with his wife, her kids and grandkids....not that anyone should allow him to be around children...but that's our wonderful justice system....2 confessions both taped and he gets to drag this out for over a year! Okay sorry I'm done....It gets me a little worked up that's all.

Seriously folks, that's it for tonight. Safe and happy riding!

Gorgeous Ride into work today

Well I had to work today...booo....lol just kidding. I guess it was about time for my lazy butt to get back here considering I was off for 3 day straight.

The ride in was absolutely gorgeous and I managed to ride in pretty fast...even with a headwind...guess I am getting stronger. Or maybe all those days of rest did me some good.

Haven't gotten a Christmas Tree yet but do plan on doing so tomorrow. I'll also head out to mass at 6 P.m. with the kids.

My stomach hasn't been feeling too good since yesterday afternoon. So, I'm getting ready to chow on some homemade chicken noodle soup. Bob said he will pick me up tonight instead of me having to ride home...which is fine...because it will be dark and I get a little nervous insome spots on the route, plus like I said my stomach is feeling a little out of wack.

Okay, that's it for now, although as I sit here for the next 8.5 hours something else might come to might so I might blog again!

Happy and Safe Riding Folks!!!

Thanksgiving is over...life moves forward

I'm thankful that Thanksgiving Is over! It was fun. Everyone came, ate, laughed, and had fun. My cousins and I seem to have mended our past problems...or at least we have all realized that the things that happened when we were very young (teens and early twenties) are far behind us and we should just put it all aside.

The house is still in pretty good shape. No major spills, accidents, or breaks. The dogs did well with all the people, no scotch guard required!

I have a massive headache today though...ugh! I'm happy to be off work today because I needed a day to sit at home and do very little.

I did have a nasty wake up last night/early this morning. Cody came into my room vomiting...all over my pretty pink robe even. I'm not sure what the problem was, I'm sure he ate too many cookies or something as I wasn't able to keep an eye on them, the food and the guests constantly. So, I gave him a bath and everything needed to be washed. UGH! Nothing like doing that in the early morning hours.

Might have to go pick up a Christmas tree this weekend. I'm on shifts both tomorrow and Sunday! HURRAY!